Brothers

I was 4 when I lost my mother;somewhere doubting & bothered. My twin brother is schizoaffective & bipolar. I did what I could to keep his head above water. He tried to kill me with a rock & hammer. He is forgiven;not by the system. My oldest brother died at 18;lives in love supreme. Dear younger, how can we come together? What about the fear & anger?Dad, what if work was over? There is a friend closer than a brother.